Warning: I am extremely ranty right now.
It’s 8:40 pm. I’m siting here crying hot angry tears at the whole world because I am a woman and I am depressed and because I can!
For starters, I had this whole blog post I wanted to write that was going to be awesome and it just won’t come out right.
Seriously, it was going to change the world.
Secondly, I don’t have enough tulle.
Yes you read that right.
I thought I had heaps but I don’t have enough and this seriously hurts my feelings,
Thirdly, the damn rabbit got out again and this time it’s gone for good as far as I can tell. Which means I get to inform Taylah in the morning and deal with the tears.
Fourthly, I just got a text from a friend saying that the girls night out I had organised for tomorrow night, has been changed to dinner and dessert due to cost.
This has really made me ranty.
Really, seriously, ranty.
For starters, seeing as I was the one who suggested it, I thought I would get more than a text informing me the decision had been made without me. Also, I had initially suggested somewhere much more affordable, but it was decided class was more important than budget, so we changed that.
Finally, it seems 7:30 is too early for everyone, so it’s been pushed back and changed to coffee and cake.
I don’t do coffee and cake.
It’s not my thing.
I’m not a coffee snob. Not at all. I really don’t get it. Give me instant and I’m happy with that. The thought of spending $5 for a mug of something that doesn’t taste any different than the Moccona I have at home is not financially wisdomous in my book.
I’m also not a fan of dessert.
Again, give me something cheap like a McFlurry and I’m happy. I hate spending $15 plus on a piece of tiny cake that is only going to add to my waist line.
I’d much rather spend my money on a substantial meal and a glass of wine. (FYI, I’m not fussy there either. Can’t tell the difference between a $6 and $60 bottle.)
But more than that, it’s frustrating being left out of the loop.
I have a feeling its because I missed one social engagement, which, for the record, was a birthday celebration for a birthday that’s party was celebrated two days before the second celebration, and on a day when I had three parties to attend. (Did that even make any sense?)
With my mind in the current mental state that it is, and having anxiety attacks every five minutes, there is only so much social I can do, so for my own mental health I took a break.
Not that I could explain it like that, but anyway.
I guess, after a week of school holidays, a birthday party to plan for on the weekend, and a crappy few weeks, the idea of a fun girls night out with dinner and drinks and who knows what else was such a welcome respite.
And now I’m left feeling extremely short changed.
And ranty.
And kind of a bit sad and rejected.
But what can I do? (Rhetorical question.)
And do you have any spare tulle?
Oh poppet… My heart hurts for you…
I have no advice… Just didn’t want this post going out into the void with no response.
If this were me, my mum would tell me to go to bed and things would be better in the morning… that is worth a try?
Hope you can sort this out. Not fun being a dang grown up sometime!
Oh, and I have pink, white and purple tulle – which colour did you need?
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Purple would be great
Yes I’m sure it will be better in the morning, and at least it will mean getting out of the house for a little while.
Sorry hon, we don’t do tulle! But if we did, it would be yours in a heartbeat.
Overreacting? Not at all. Your feelings are valid. That said, I know you’ll move forward though, because you are you. Until then, it’s a crappy night. It ends at midnight.
Tomorrow is the start of another day.
xxXOoo
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Exactly. It will all seem silly in the morning I’m sure. Being extremely emo right now is not helpful.
Thanks for the offer of tulle
xx
no spare tulle here (heck I’m not even sure what that is!) but lots of love… lots and lots of it xxxx
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Love is so much better than tulle xxx
No tulle at my abode either. However, you are not overreacting and I really hope that getting this down on “paper” helped you a teeny tiny bit. I am the master of dejected feelings especially when you have had a part in the planning etc, it feels like absolute shit and considering it sounded like you really needed it… very very frustrating.
I hope you can go to sleep soon and have a super lovely sleep and wake up and think eff it, and indulge in a cup of Macona and a Mc flurry for breakfast (Im still pissed that took away the m n m’s option, what WERE they thinking..) xx
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A McFlurry for breakfast sounds so indulgent and soooo divine!
Thanks for three support. It’s really appreciated. Xx
Given I am on the otherside of the world tulle or no tulle I am little help on that one.
As for your rant, who doesn’t need a rant every now and again besides your rant may have used up some adrenalin, you know that nasty little gremlin who controls those anxiety attack feelings, so there is an upside.
Now go for a run around the block or some star jumps indoors if it’s raining, get rid of the rest of that adrenalin and enjoy a good sleep xo
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Yes it felt better getting it off my chest, and I’m glad to know most people think I was justified in my frustration.
Now sleeping sounds soooo good
I prob would have been peeved too! Yep, that would annoy me. Coffee and cake? You can do that in the freaking day time! Budget night out – I’d rather hit the RSL! lol
It’s ok to be emo even though its not particularly enjoyable… I was totally emo last week!
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Yes! Let’s hit the RSL together! That sounds like a great idea!
Nope definitely not over reacting. I would’ve been peed off too!! I can’t justify spending that much on dessert and coffee either, especially if that’s not what you were planning. I’d much rather a filling meal
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Thankyou! Glad I’m not alone.
Think I’ll go and drink wine instead of coffee. Or maybe a cocktail…
That’s just crap, Jess.
Crappy crap crap.
Thinking of you and glad you could get it out in blog form – love the cathartic nature of the blog.
Now, just off to rip some tulle from my Small Child’s many tutus and “fairy dresses” and express post them up… Are you OK with chocolate stained green tulle?
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Chocolate stained green tulle would be great thanks!
Yes blogs are a good release and it’s nice to be heard. That’s the best bit I think.
I totally get the need to rant.Often just getting it out makes the world of difference.Still go out with your friends if that is what you feel you need.You can still have a chat and a laugh and lovely time out.Feel sorry for the one who took over the plans.Rise above them.They obviously have issues.
I felt anger today as my sister told me she cant/wont help me with mum as she finds it too upsetting.I want to cry everytime I leave mum.But I care for her out of love.I was so angry and got so worked up then I remembered my girl was at her friends funeral today.
Kind of made me see things in a different light.I was wasting my time on anger on someone who I couldnt do anything about.Another family was burying their daughter.I had mine coming home with me warm and safe.
Emotions are funny things.Sometimes we let them take over.I hope writing out your feeling here has helped and tomorrow will be a brighter day.I hope you have your outing and get to laugh and relax as you sweet lady are the better person.xx
Oh what a day! That’s hard for you all around and makes me realise how petty I am being.
Looking after your mum is such a hard job; I can understand your frustration at your sister and it’s perfectly justified. You need a break too sometimes.
Praying for the family of your daughters friends. No one should have to bury their child
xxxx
I had to look up tulle on Wikipedia to find out what it was. Turns out it’s a small town in central France. So no, I don’t have any.
Do you have any other small French towns you could lend me?
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No tulle, sorry… but understand the feeling of being ‘left out’. I haven’t caught up with my closest friends for months – which is unheard of. I’ve got to the point now where I’m not even suggesting it as they’re too busy with their own lives (they have partners and families and stuff).
Having said that – I do miss a ‘girls’ night out (or even a lunch etc). There’s nothing like it. I hope the coffee and cake isn’t too unfulfilling. I don’t drink coffee either. Perhaps it will be somewhere that also serves wine. I could do wine and cake!
Deb
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I did wine and pizza, because I like breaking the rules, and I really wanted to go out for a meal!
It’s hard when your friends have families cause they can’t do all the stuff with you they would like to.
Next time you’re in Darwin, we wil have to go out
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I am pretty sure you have every right to be frustrated with these friends. Plans changed last minute are never fun and it sucks that you went to all the trouble of organizing it for nothing. I also do not do coffee and cake. What’s the point in wasting $15 when you can get a decent steak for $20. Your friends should know you better and respect that. Sucks hey. As somebody who has cried for 2 days over a stupid bible study being canceled last minute when I really needed a break I totally understand. The only thing I can suggest is maybe God has something better in store.
Sorry about the rabbit. :’(
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Amazingly, th rabbit came back! Which I’m pretty sure was a God thing!
Sorry about the Bible study; it’s so hard when you’re emotional anyway, and looking forward to something that doesn’t end up happening. Hope you get a little bit of timeout soon. Xx
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All good mate the bible study was months n months ago but I meant I am familiar with the seemingly unrealistic disappointment.
So cool about the bunny returning
Not overreacting at all. Even if you were, there are sayings about straws and camel’s backs and end of tethers and end of patiences for a reason. It all piles up. Vent away!
And I have no tulle, but I do have a mullet wig that you are welcome to borrow. Instant smiles guaranteed. x
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I would like to see a vlog with you wearing the mullet wig ok?
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I love reading your posts and how you write what I so often feel. I love how you can make great plans and people step in and change them on you. Sometimes people don’t realise how much you need something to just work out like you had planned. I am sorry you had to go through this. I think you are amazing. Much Love.
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Thankyou so much; that was a lovely comment. Xx
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Well that’s damn rude of your friends to change plans without consulting you. If they want coffee and cake, you order a wine and nachos or fries.
I had wine and Pizza.
Cause I can!
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Yay!!
Ok, now I’m cranky because only half of my reply was printed.
Sorry to hear about the bunny. Seems like that wretched rabbit is very problematic. Hope you’re having a better day today. In words from Aunty Kerry and myself ‘Soldier On’. And enjoy your wine xxxxx
There is something deeply hurtful about being left out of the loop and then informed via text, so no, I don’t think you’re overreacting. Especially if it’s something you were looking forward to and needed.
Also, teh tulle? I haz none.
xxx
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Yep it was hurtful. Though I don’t think anyone else realised that at all, but that’s just life isn’t it?
I found some cheap tulle at spotlight. Huzzah!
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If I had pretty Japanese tulle, it would so be your’s
And like everyone else – it was pretty rude for something YOU had organised to be changed without even consulting you. It was probably the last straw, hey? Feeling any better with the light of day?
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I was pretty ticked off all day but I went and had an alright time anyway. It’s good to get dressed up and go out sometimes.
Japanese tulle, is that different to Aussie tulle?
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I’d be ranty too about not being asked , I’d much rather dinner than coffee and cake.
Hehe. Can’t tell $2 clean skin from $20 expensive bottle.
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Oh I love a good clean skin! Expensive wine seems so pointless!
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Arrh Jess, I think we’ve all been in that situation (friends wise) before. I say as frustrating as it’s making you, let it go. No doubt your friends will expect a song and dance, be the bigger person, even if it’s hard.
Remember what’s under your own roof. When ever I’m feeling let down by friends or family for that matter, I remind myself that my husband and children are my life and they love me unconditionally.
Thanks.
I went and apologized for getting narky, not that anyone apologized back, but that’s fine. I was over it by then!
And also it does make me realise that boatman really is the best company I can ask for.
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I have tulle and would go out for dinner and drinks with you! Totally not overreacting. I hate it when something I planned gets scrapped without informing me
Excellent! We must make a night of it and wear our fairy skirts!
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OH, as usual I’m screeching up to this ranty bus stop incredibly late so if the bus has already been that’s ok, I’ll just chat with the next person who turns up and sits down.
Sounding like a bus stop stalker now.
Just because I have just rocked up, did you find the rabbit?
I do not have …umm what is it… tulle, I can find some tools though? No? oh ok, that kind of sums up my expertise in that area!
I do however know what you mean when life has been tough and you are hanging out for that moment, that planned escape. You build your hopes, put in your last energy for the home run and the ribbon is moved. I’d have cried too. Next time ping me and we can cry together. Perth needs the rain anyway.
Yes you are woman, Yes you can rant it’s your birth right, even better you can CRY. and every now and again it’s even a little bit naughty and nice to enjoy it all.
I hope things have improved. Oh one thing though, I so need to introduce you to real coffee! I too used to be an instant teaspooner. You have to have been to cup made with TLC and you’d be a convert.
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Oh Jess, I’m sure every single one of us can relate to feeling this way at some point or another…. I hope that your week has since improved and that you were able to do something that you enjoyed, whether or not it was drinks with the girls.
Ronnie xo
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